12/18/19

Currently listening to In January by Sadness. This is one of those songs that resonates with you no matter what. I don´t understand what he´s saying, and yet I know how he feels.

Everyone seems to be getting Christmas presents from their friends. Except for me. They...they forgot me.

¨It´s okay. I wouldn´t remember me either.¨

I know it´s stupid and petty. But it´s the little things that get to you. I didn´t forget them. I made Anna a watercolor painting, and I was gonna get another person a present too.

Sometimes I wonder if I´m already dead, and I´m a ghost. Attached to this place, unable to let go and ascend because so much pain was inflicted here. People sure treat me like I am one.