12/16/19

Guess who gave me a Christmas present today, of all people? Jackson. Some candy and headphones, in a stocking. I appreciate the effort, but I don´t really know how to feel.

Besides that, I had a shitty day. Annabelle told me that I wasn´t funny, that I had no sense of humor. The thing is, I wasn´t always like this. I used to be someone. I was so joyful. I had so much potential. Look at me now. What a waste. At this point I´m really only staying alive for my parents. I´m writing this in the middle of class. If I went to the school bathroom right now and blew my brains out, no one would care. If I disappeared, no one would notice at all. Poof. Gone. Just like that. It´s unbearable. Sometimes I wish that my parents DIDN´T care, so that I could die without guilt.