11/1/19

Currently listening to ¨Robot¨ by The L.I.P.

The spell worked. I saw Preston in my dreams. Unfortunately, I don´t remember it very well. I don´t think he said anything particularly meaningful. We just chatted kinda. It seemed like he didn´t really know that he was dead. I told my parents. They said it wasn´t out of character for him.

I discovered that there is a confessions account for my school on Instagram and Tellonym. You go to Tellonym to submit your confession anonymously, and then it gets posted on Instagram. I had the impulse to vent about my suicidal thoughts. I did it. Now I regret it and I´m terrified that people will see it and know it´s me. I´m not scared that people would care and worry about me. It´s that they´ll think I´m an attention whore.

I went on a binge tonight. Ate 5 pizza slices and a bunch of candy. Now I feel super fat and gross. It´s so hard for me to lose weight and then every time I eat I gain like 5 pounds. Anyways, here are some ED memes.