10/31/19

Currently listening to ¨Your Ultimate Urban Nightmare¨ by Bonjour Tristesse.

Me, Lenore, and Miriam went trick or treating tonight. It wasn´t very fun because things felt very tense and awkward between us. Perhaps it was because a few days ago I forwarded an article about how the creator of Lenore´s favorite show is a total POS to her. I genuinely didn´t mean to be a dick. In the moment I just didn´t want her supporting bad people. In retrospect, it was a terrible idea. When I sent her the article she responded very angrily. She also said that she didn´t want to talk about this, so I can´t apologize to her.

God, I hope I don´t lose my only friends. Then again, if I do, that could be the last push that makes me finally CTB.

I wished that Preston visits me in my dreams tonight.